Today, I turned 27.
I suppose it’s natural for people to reflect on their lives on birthdays, since it’s a glaring reminder that time is passing whether you notice it or not. It’s a good excuse to compare where you are with where you want to be, and figure out if you’re doing anything to unify […]

I’m so fucking frustrated lately.
Work has been increasingly unsatisfying for me. I’m completely and totally swamped by work that I find hopelessly boring. Every day is the same as the last. Endless projects, endless uncertainty. No one knows what they want, they just want it now. I’m left with a big vague project that WILL […]

Day two. Significantly better than day one. Still, it would have been nice if there had been some warning.
I had a terrible dream last night. This is the description I cobbled together when it forcibly ejected me from REM sleep at 6am this morning:
Nightmare 11/27
I was at jady and kelly’s, hanging out and talking shit […]

Fucking hell, am I stressed out. I’m almost manic.
This week is Thanksgiving. I have been tasked with procuring a vegetable tray. I need advice: do you normally purchase vegetable trays the day before, or the day of? I don’t want to roll up with wilted broccoli. Failing at such a trivial task would be unacceptable.
On […]

These past 4 days have been crappy. Friday was horrible, Saturday and Sunday were pretty benign, and today has been a fucking nightmare.
The thing that continues to pulsate in my mind and distract from any other avenue of thought is my almost total inability to handle these things. Overall, much of what has gone on […]

…it’s what I get, I’m convinced it’s my punishment.
Not much has been going on. Life is stagnant, as usual. My pop culture input has been higher than usual. I guess it’s useful when you need to keep your brain from making stories and pictures.
I’ve had this weird idea floating around in my head for a […]

The issues with the specific machine this site is hosted on have still not been resolved, so I’m supposedly getting moved to another, functional server. Goodbye, twizzler. You were good to me for a time. I feel like I hardly got to know ye.
Anyway, I had a weird couple of days. I was attacked on […]

You might have noticed that the site was down quite a bit last week. My host had multiple, cascading hardware failures starting last weekend. It seems like it’s finally resolved for the most part. I was one of the lucky few to have problems ALL FUCKING WEEK.
So, anyway, let’s catch up.
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Uhhh… I don’t really know […]

I don’t really have anything to say, I just thought typing some things here might help settle my mind and let the dreams come.
Speaking of dreams, in an effort to control, or at the very least, guide the content of my nightmares, I’ve tuned my alarm clock to an ultra-religious AM radio station. This does […]

On tonight’s Talking Points, we review facts relevant and pertinent to the existence of one JR Smith.
He’s working a lot. A LOT, and is yet still swamped with never-ending piles of work.
He’s finished reading House of Leaves and thoroughly enjoyed it.
He found out some news that could be potentially devastating. Seriously, if it happens, he’s […]

I have a story to tell, and some catching up to do with you.

In middle school, my artisti rival was - whether she knew it or not - a girl named Maria Fernandez. I didn’t meet her until Governor’s School many years later.
The first couple of years of Governor’s School, Maria clearly thought I was […]

Arrested Development is hilarious. I watched 7 or 8 episodes last night. Very, very good show.
And on the way to work, I got to sit in this for an hour:

But I did get a raise. Sweet.
And I slept for.. 8.5 hours. Also sweet.
My life is like Hampton Roads’ weather. Horrible one day, sunny the next.

Quite unhappy in all regards lately.
There are so many horrible things totally out of reach that I can’t escape. Nothing I do matters. I’m consumed with guilt.
I’ve been sleeping more, which, of course, means I’ve been having more horrible dreams. She has been a frequent theme in these dreams, I presume because of the recent […]

Why am I awake? I haven’t been able to sleep for shit for the past… 4 days? 5? I’m not even sure. I think I like it that way, though. Life is easier to play when it seems like a dream.
I have yet to begin my self-hypnosis regimen. I have, however, forgotten to take my […]

Everything is in turmoil right now.
Jamie is moving home. She tells me that she could come back here when she figures things out, but I know that’s not going to happen. It’s out of my hands now. I love her, so I’m sure I’ll go up and see her as often as possible, but our […]

i forgot to post. the day was pretty uneventful anyway.. spent some time at buster’s, umm… that was about it. oh, as far as work goes, i found out i may be getting transferred to another company. it’s all still maybes, but it might mean i’d have to start working in hampton, which sux. but […]

has been a long day. work dragged on and on, i had lunch with cj, and the tick premiered. it was pretty funny but the “action” was pretty shitty. good thing it’s a comedy. the package i sent to bobbi got there yesterday, she was very thankful and even said she was impressed with my […]

so i’ve been working on this web app for like 2 or 3 months now, and it’s almost ready to use, and today i discover that they didn’t exactly share all the info with me. there turns out to be about 1000 more accounts in the db i will need to anticipate. blarg. i have […]

my insides hurt. why do people not realize what they do?
i did get a raise today.. so at least something good happened.

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