Today, I turned 27.
I suppose it’s natural for people to reflect on their lives on birthdays, since it’s a glaring reminder that time is passing whether you notice it or not. It’s a good excuse to compare where you are with where you want to be, and figure out if you’re doing anything to unify […]

I’m so fucking frustrated lately.
Work has been increasingly unsatisfying for me. I’m completely and totally swamped by work that I find hopelessly boring. Every day is the same as the last. Endless projects, endless uncertainty. No one knows what they want, they just want it now. I’m left with a big vague project that WILL […]

Day two. Significantly better than day one. Still, it would have been nice if there had been some warning.
I had a terrible dream last night. This is the description I cobbled together when it forcibly ejected me from REM sleep at 6am this morning:
Nightmare 11/27
I was at jady and kelly’s, hanging out and talking shit […]

Fucking hell, am I stressed out. I’m almost manic.
This week is Thanksgiving. I have been tasked with procuring a vegetable tray. I need advice: do you normally purchase vegetable trays the day before, or the day of? I don’t want to roll up with wilted broccoli. Failing at such a trivial task would be unacceptable.
On […]

These past 4 days have been crappy. Friday was horrible, Saturday and Sunday were pretty benign, and today has been a fucking nightmare.
The thing that continues to pulsate in my mind and distract from any other avenue of thought is my almost total inability to handle these things. Overall, much of what has gone on […]

The issues with the specific machine this site is hosted on have still not been resolved, so I’m supposedly getting moved to another, functional server. Goodbye, twizzler. You were good to me for a time. I feel like I hardly got to know ye.
Anyway, I had a weird couple of days. I was attacked on […]

You might have noticed that the site was down quite a bit last week. My host had multiple, cascading hardware failures starting last weekend. It seems like it’s finally resolved for the most part. I was one of the lucky few to have problems ALL FUCKING WEEK.
So, anyway, let’s catch up.
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Uhhh… I don’t really know […]

I don’t really have anything to say, I just thought typing some things here might help settle my mind and let the dreams come.
Speaking of dreams, in an effort to control, or at the very least, guide the content of my nightmares, I’ve tuned my alarm clock to an ultra-religious AM radio station. This does […]

On tonight’s Talking Points, we review facts relevant and pertinent to the existence of one JR Smith.
He’s working a lot. A LOT, and is yet still swamped with never-ending piles of work.
He’s finished reading House of Leaves and thoroughly enjoyed it.
He found out some news that could be potentially devastating. Seriously, if it happens, he’s […]

I have a story to tell, and some catching up to do with you.

In middle school, my artisti rival was - whether she knew it or not - a girl named Maria Fernandez. I didn’t meet her until Governor’s School many years later.
The first couple of years of Governor’s School, Maria clearly thought I was […]

Arrested Development is hilarious. I watched 7 or 8 episodes last night. Very, very good show.
And on the way to work, I got to sit in this for an hour:

But I did get a raise. Sweet.
And I slept for.. 8.5 hours. Also sweet.
My life is like Hampton Roads’ weather. Horrible one day, sunny the next.

Quite unhappy in all regards lately.
There are so many horrible things totally out of reach that I can’t escape. Nothing I do matters. I’m consumed with guilt.
I’ve been sleeping more, which, of course, means I’ve been having more horrible dreams. She has been a frequent theme in these dreams, I presume because of the recent […]

Why am I awake? I haven’t been able to sleep for shit for the past… 4 days? 5? I’m not even sure. I think I like it that way, though. Life is easier to play when it seems like a dream.
I have yet to begin my self-hypnosis regimen. I have, however, forgotten to take my […]

Everything is in turmoil right now.
Jamie is moving home. She tells me that she could come back here when she figures things out, but I know that’s not going to happen. It’s out of my hands now. I love her, so I’m sure I’ll go up and see her as often as possible, but our […]

i feel so much anger and hatred lately. towards pretty much everything. it’s like every aspect of my life and those lives related to me are completely fucked. completely dysfunctional. completely not what i would want. and i don’t have the force of will or energy to do anything about it. i’m content to sit […]

ok so i’m at work, had some down time and i was just messin around, i decided to see if there was any progress on the web page so i checked it out and lo and behold, there’s a page that is pretty damn similar to a page i had made to be served from […]

i just posted this on anothe site, thought i’d share it….
the world is full of people who have been hammered with jesus this prayer that since they were sucking their momma’s teet and are just adamantly absorbed in it. they can offer no logical reason as to why they believe what they do other than […]