I just discovered that this site’s 10th birthday was on May 7th. That’s insane to me.
Also, there might be a problem with Sandra’s baby, so, whatever you do to try to ward off bad things, please start doing it for her.

Life has been quite… trying, lately. My last post delved into my struggle with Jenn’s mom and her bigotry. Right now, I find myself in a sort of limbo. I have no recourse, yet I’m saddled with all the fears and guilts you could possibly imagine arising from this scenario, and Jenn is content to […]

Today, I turned 27.
I suppose it’s natural for people to reflect on their lives on birthdays, since it’s a glaring reminder that time is passing whether you notice it or not. It’s a good excuse to compare where you are with where you want to be, and figure out if you’re doing anything to unify […]

I’ve been on vacation for the past week and a half. Jenn’s been here with me since August 1st. I’m taking her back to Richmond Tuesday night, and not having her here is going to take some getting used to.
I have other things on my mind right now, though.
I found out one week ago that […]

It’s been a month (more, actually) since I decided to cut fast food out of my life and cook for myself. Here are the results:
Between 4/14/2008 and 5/14/2008, I spent the following on groceries:

Date
Name
Amount

4/14/2008
WAL-MART #3831 PORTSMOUTH
-157.81

4/21/2008
UKROP S #415 RICHMOND
-20

4/24/2008
FARM FRESH #338 VIRGINIA BEAC
-25.75

5/5/2008
GIANT FOOD INC #25 GAINESVILLE
-7.88

5/5/2008
GIANT FOOD INC #25 GAINESVILLE
-6.28

5/5/2008
KROGER #511 RICHMOND
-44.72

5/5/2008
KROGER #511 RICHMOND
-1.53

5/5/2008
WAL-MART […]

I had the weirdest dream last night:
I came home, presumably from work, and one of my windows was slightly open, and the blinds were all fucked up. Obviously, someone had broken in. I ran inside and looked around… TV, game consoles, even my coffee table was gone. I went into the kitchen and noticed that […]

Another awesome weekend, come and gone. There was one glaring blemish, though:

Over the many, many years that I’ve had to put up with this person, I’ve learned to mostly ignore her. Yes, occasionally, when I’m feeling short-tempered for whatever reason and she starts her bullshit, I’ll get pissed. I’m generally more pissed at myself for […]

i forgot to post. the day was pretty uneventful anyway.. spent some time at buster’s, umm… that was about it. oh, as far as work goes, i found out i may be getting transferred to another company. it’s all still maybes, but it might mean i’d have to start working in hampton, which sux. but […]

at the prompting of floris i guess i should post a little update.

CJ was in a car wreck - totalled his parent’s new yorker. he was gonna just leave the car and “go play some garou” but the cops showed up. now whenever we are gonna do something i have to drive all the way […]

it just struck me how much this thing has changed. originally it was supposed to be a journal, and was for a while. damn my family for screwing that up. i think i’ll rewrite the site using perl, and include a lock function to make certain posts private… hmmm…

i feel like utter shit. i am not going to be talking to much of anyone for a while. i sincerely tried to resist this slump but people are assholes and i just want to die. i am hollow. i have nothing left. my heart is a billion miles away. i have nothing left to […]

are bleak today. i realize bobbi has no feelings whatsoever for me and never will. i should have realized this long ago since she more or less told me that. but i held out hope, and even entertained the thought that something might happen, becuz on the nights we went out, becuz i was so […]

since people (read: my family) seem to have stopped reading the site, i guess i can start posting more personal things again.
my bouts of depression are occuring at a much more rapid pace, but they don’t seem to last as long. i used to feel down a few days at a time maybe once or […]

the upgrade went very well. i’m now running at 1.333ghz. so here’s a quick update as to what’s been going on:
today was my last day at the library. starting monday i report to the IT trailer.. i’m excited, it’s hopefully gonna be a good thing.
cj and i are speaking again. it was a whole big […]

alright so here’s whats been going on lately… i got into an email argument with mom the other day over what she’s doing with this guy tom. as usual she turned it on me, concentrating on my problems and faults and completely disregarding the subject of the arguement. she didn’t think what she is doing […]

is it considered adultery if your marriage is over, but the divorce hasn’t been finalized? i can’t believe she moved from one drunk redneck to another this quickly. i need to get the fuck out of here…

so one day, i just decided to do it. i picked up a used gun from the net, it was easier than you might think. i couldn’t quite decide when though. i thought the shock of me running through the house and the POW was appealing but so was imagining them finding the body, days […]

it’s been a while since i posted. not much is going on, i might be changing jobs soon.. it’s stressing me out… bobbi is leaving for california this weekend, so i may not be able to talk to her for a while.. that sux.. cj and joanna are (maybe were) having troubles… mom is cheating […]

absolutely nothing is going on. i mean NOT A THING… bobbi is going to the academy awards. i want to move out of this house. i need to first pay off my credit card debt, then save up a decent amount of money.. i should be able to find a small apartment for like 400-500 […]

Well it’s been 2 weeks since bobbi left and she hasn’t been online.. she said she wouldn’t be getting on very often when she goes back to school but i didn’t think that meant never again.. oh well
life has been pretty uneventful.. hung out with cj and joanna last night, my mom’s birthday was friday, […]