Thoughts for 2007:

• If at all possible, recede from society even further. Spend more time reading and learning.
• Buy a new car. The old Camry has had a good run.
• Buy more watches, shoes and pants.
• Buy new bedroom furniture.
• Buy a bigger, more complicated phone. Preferably a PDA.
• Work more, then work less.
• Buy a nintendo wii.
• Listen to more music.
• Watch more movies.
• Like yourself.

I think back on the past year, and I’m ashamed. At the beginning of the year, I was still wrapped up in what she had done. I made a few mistakes, trying to fill the void she left.

One year hence, I’m over it all, but my life is stagnant. I’m in the same place at work. I’m living in the same house, with the same car, the same furniture, the same possessions. I have the same friends, though the nature of those friendships have changed. I have the same sheets, the same carpet, the same neglect for my yard. I’m just as fat. I eat the same food.

What’s changed? Laura moved out Friday (halfway), and Tabitha is moving in… whenever Laura finishes moving out. I have more clothes. I’ve learned to ignore my nightmares, for the most part.

I’d be hard-pressed to think of anything else.

There’s a lot that needs to change. A thousand small things need a little push this way or that. I need to exercise more. Who am I kidding? I need to start exercising. I need to get back into art. I need to work on my self-confidence. I need to spend less money. I need to learn new programming languages. I need to stop letting people walk all over me. I need to be more responsible.

I need to work on actually doing these things instead of letting myself float through another year…

So, here’s to a new beginning, that’s just like every other new beginning.