…it’s what I get, I’m convinced it’s my punishment.

Not much has been going on. Life is stagnant, as usual. My pop culture input has been higher than usual. I guess it’s useful when you need to keep your brain from making stories and pictures.

I’ve had this weird idea floating around in my head for a while that involves remote controls, lengths of track, and a powerful laser. I want it to cut my grass. For now, I’ll continue ignoring that fact that I even have a backyard, but it seems like an avenue worth pursuing.

I stumbled upon a lengthy reading list that I would like to undertake. It was actually on a site that I check daily. I’m not sure how I missed it. I still haven’t finished that last book I pledged to defeat and digest. It’s kind of hard to get wrapped up in. I expected more religious discourse, this mostly focuses on aliens, though it’s still very interesting.

I need a new car.

I miss drawing.

I feel kind of guilty for something I did last week. The rational side of me says that there’s no reason whatsoever to regret this small bit of vengence, since this person did terrible, terrible things to me and deserves every bit of pain, heartache and inconvenience I can dish out, but the guilt is there, nonetheless. I’m not sure if I’m feeling guilty for the actual act, or for still being so caught up in the whole situation and… wounded that I would need to do it in the first place. It’s probably the latter.

Python 2.5 was released yesterday. I’ve been remiss in learning new languages lately. Python always appealed to me. I’m going to try to motivate myself to actually start using it.

I’ve changed the style of this site a bit. Instead of being a purely fluid layout, I’m going with fixed-width designed for 1024×768 or higher resolutions. Google Analytics tells me that only six percent of you people use 800×600, and the 640×480 hits come from automated services, I believe, so…

It’s been a hotly debated issue in some circles lately. Personally, I couldn’t care less if this site loads correctly in IE5 on 800×600.

Work is as it always has been. Frustrating and unfulfilling. I like this company. I like what I do. I’m just… I don’t know. Bored? I haven’t had anything new to work on in a very long time. Even if I was given a new project, I wouldn’t have time for it, because my cup runeth over with augmentations for existing things. I was allowed to quickly design a site a few weeks ago, but I wasn’t really given any time in which to do it, so I spent a weekend on it, and haven’t been able to touch it since. I was used as a Hail Mary pass a couple of weeks ago for some report that was becoming troublesome. I feel ridiculous when I say that working on those things provided a rush. It was just that it was different that made it so enthralling. My interest in my normal workload has fallen to such miserable depths that I’m not sure I can ever make it out without quitting or dying. That may be the pessimist in me talking.

To try and curb that tailspin into professional hell, I’m going to redo some of my major projects in python. I’ve said that before, of course, and never followed through, so I’m hoping to have a little more ambition here instead of letting myself waste away and float through life like I normally do.

I’m also very irritated with people as of late. I don’t know if its my irritability or the shittyness of people I associate with that’s been increasing, but people I deal with on a daily basis have been increasingly doing stupid things, making bad decisions, treating me like garbage and flat-out lying to me. I’m tired of it. So, fucking stop it.

Stuff I’m enjoying lately:

• House, MD
• Prison Break
• Bob Dylan’s new CD Modern Times
• Lupe Fiasco’s new CD Food and Liquor
• DailyLit
• A working car door handle
• New shirts - I have close to 80 now, including the ones currently in the postal system.
• Red curry from Bangkok Garden
• Liquid Plumbr Power Jet because it’s awesome.
• Last.fm

Stuff I’m hating lately:

• Flavor of Love 2
• Exploding hard drives
• Dating websites
• Nightmares
• Being lead on and lied to
• My left pinky toe

I have to give a presentation of Friday. That should be fun. Sigh.

I guess that’s all for now. Synopsis: I’m not happy, but not miserable, which is normal for me. I could do several things to improve my situation and attitude, but have no motivation to do so. I’m bored and lonely, and I love spicy food.