I think I figured out why today was so depressing.
It’s the 31st.
Today would have been…
Sigh.

Today, my existence seems very surreal. I’m not sure why.
I was switched to lexapro a few weeks ago, to see if the side effects of the zoloft would go away. And they did. But so did the positive effects. I wasn’t sure if the medication was making me feel better, or if it was the […]

I went ahead and enabled comments on entries. I figured it would be safe to do so, now that flame-inspiring drama has more or less concluded.
You will be required to register here, though, if you want to leave one. I doubt that will cause too much heartache. The same handfull of people are the ones […]

I just bought the following shirts:

A Fathom Farewell

Doin My Best

Life

Take a Hike

Motovino
I enjoy shirts with weird pictures. I do not enjoy shirts with stupid phrases across the chest. To my mind, they are tacky.

Weekend was successful.
No time to update now.. It’s been a very busy day, I have a terrible headache, and I’m about to head out to dinner.
But life is good.

I’m going camping with the family this weekend. I’m very much looking forward to getting away and spending time with people who actually give a shit about me.
I haven’t been camping since I was in the boy scouts.. I always enjoyed it, but none of the information really stuck with me, so this is going […]

I will never see Spartacus again, because Jamie Kinzey is a heartless bitch who cares only for herself.

Apparently, he’s been here since she left. 3 fucking weeks. For 3 weeks I’ve missed him every time I sat at the computer and felt the sensation of him climbing up my leg to sit on my lap, […]

I just talked to Melissa.
She started off by apologizing to me. Now, she didn’t really need to apologize to me, specifically, but I appreciated the thought immensely.
But here’s the part that necessitates this entry:
TristNMommy: i need a change in my life
jrisadork: i agree
TristNMommy: it’s time to grow up
TristNMommy: i’m not […]

I’ve been trying so hard to pretend like I was ok, like I was handling things, moving on, so on and so forth, and I realize now that that was a huge mistake.
My heart knows that if I can find someone else to give love to, to think about constantly, to wrap my life around […]

I thought this new medication was supposed to stop the dreams?
Last night, I dreamt that my mom and Jamie were at my house. Jamie was talking to someone on the phone, and my mom was helping her pack. She was pissed at me for something. I, in typical fashion, was being ignored while trying to […]

Things certainly are changing. While I can’t speak on things with much detail right now, know that there is an almost unbelievable level of drama and bullshit permeating the air and various fiber data lines between Virginia, Florida, and possibly San Francisco, all at the hands of Jamie Kinzey. I say almost unbelievable because if […]

Oh, look around you
Look down the bar from you
The lonely faces that you see
Are you sure that this is where you want to be
These are your friends
But are they real friends
Do they love you the same as me
Are you sure that this is where you want to be
You seem in such a hurry to live […]