Lately I’ve been existing in a sort of forced indifference toward pretty much everything, and while doing so, in the back of my mind, in every situation where the apathy is evident, a small voice asks me why, wonders what is making it happen. Every choice and care has fallen prey to this, from what […]

So I didn’t go to northern va as planned this weekend. I didn’t wake up early enough yesterday to get an oil change and an inspection, and I didn’t feel like driving 3 hours. Plus, Jamie didn’t seem too enthused about the whole thing. So meh.
In other news:

Yeeaahhhh.
When I woke up yesterday morning, the bathroom […]

…I hadn’t squished that fish.
A cookie for whoever gets that.
No, I meant I wish I was this guywoman: I’m not a fucking legless squid.
…
Hmm, that was supposed to be a link to another page. Let’s try again: http://www.somme.no/illustrations/index.php

I feel warm and soft, like fresh laundry.

So I’m back from New York. The trip was fun. I don’t really feel like going into a whole lot of detail.

This brings me joy
http://www.ananova.com/news/story/sm_961345.html?menu=news.quirkies

…but it always turned out much better than the reality.
Last night was another sleepless night. I watched adult swim in it’s entirety twice. I watched Universal Soldier. I watched Die Hard With a Vengance. I watched 2 power juicer infomercials, 3 magic bullet infomercials, 1 food saver infomercial, and one for some kind of super […]

I’m going to New York this weekend. Brooklyn, in fact. Here’s hoping some random violence does me in.
I’m constantly tired lately.

I’m so incredibly frustrated right now, with everything. I can’t believe it. I don’t think I’ve ever had this much anger and sense of hopelessness and frustration sustained for so long before. Ever. My chest and head feel so tight i could explode at any minute. The slightest provocation pisses me off.
I’m going to end […]

I’m slightly bothered by the fact that I don’t seem to care about anything. At all.

i’m losing it.
i’m positively fucking freaking over something so random and trivial, i laugh at it during my brief moments of clarity. some chick on hotornot added me to her match list. ok? that’s nice. i send her an email saying hi. i included my IM names, just in case. no answer. ok, that’s fine. […]

Ever feel like things will never, ever change? Every day is exactly like the last, every weekend is exactly like the last.
You’re trapped in a cycle of going to the same places, dealing with the same problems, talking to the same people about the same things. Eating at the same place for lunch on the […]

Death is a salesman, full of double talk and empty promises.
Presently I feel it’s cold touch lingering on my chest. My body seems to react before my mind realizes why; perspiration, increased heart rate, shallow, unfulfilling breathing. Everything in life is corrupted. Nothing brings joy, only disappointment, regret, and sorrow. Waking up in the morning […]

So.. Cinco de mayo. $1 well drinks are evil, let me be the first to say. I lost my damn ATM card in Excess somewhere.. At least I managed to keep ahold of my cell phone and check card.

i had a shitty day. i’m going to go get drunk.
fuck you.

this site has died.
i really haven’t had a lot to talk about. papw is doing much better. work is becoming more tolerable. most of the issues with my car have been worked out.
i’ve been playing City of Heroes a lot lately.
here’s a couple shots of my character:

i’m a level 10 mutant blaster. i can whoop […]

This weekend was rather dull.
Thursday night we all went out to some place in Chesapeake called Wild Wing Cantina. Jady claimed they had a menu of 21 different margaritas, and the one he had knocked him on his ass. So we get there, and immediately I wasn’t impressed. They had live music, the lead singer […]