i guess i should spill some of the reasons i’ve been depressed lately.
first of all, i’m lonely. despite the fact that i’ve been hanging out more lately than ever before, all the people i hang out with are known through cj, so when he’s not around, i get kind of quiet, and am just sorta […]

i’m depressed, for several reasons. one i can’t say here because i’ve been sworn to secrecy, and anyway, that makes me more pissed off than depressed, but it’s contributing to my negative attitude. another, wouldn’t make any sense to anyone here, and the rest is stupid. i need a drink.
anyone who wants to get torn […]

too much shit to do tonight.

take family photo. why do we have to do it in greenbriar? ug…
go to the alcohol store with cj and buy bacardi 151, ice 101, and captain morgan’s private stock for mike’s 80s party tomorrow.
burn CDs of 80s music for mike’s party tomorrow.
get some kind of costume for mike’s party. […]

i have a feeling my free time is going to be limited for the next few months. i have an ungodly amount of work to get finished, and the only possible way i can see getting it all done is working on it at home as well.
that sucks.
also, come together by the beatles is a […]

JR is not a social creature by nature. He feels extremely uncomfortable in social situations and public places. He is untrusting and suspicious of people. The only times these rules don’t apply are:

When he is in a group of people he knows well and is comfortable with (IE, CJ and Floris)
When he’s very, very drunk.

Some […]

i hate my job. seriously.

they used to be a thing of glory. lots of people, hanging out at la boca, getting torn up, going to kelly’s, getting more torn up. lately though… they’ve been lackluster.
maybe it’s just my own social inadequacy, i don’t know. i perform poorly in situations where i’m surrounded by people i’m not comfortable with. all […]

these are the thing that have been bothering me recently, unadulterated, and uncensored:
frinds, joanna not being one of them because she is a creature of habit, beyond that, a creature of bad habits, and not the kind of habits i want to be involved in anymore, at this particular moment in time, i recognize cj […]

i was drunk as hell. after work, i went to cj’s job, hung out there for a while which was extremely boring. then i went to la boca, alone, and hung out with mike. he made me this drink which we dubbed the “red fury”, and his brother later redubbed it the flaming boner or […]

i’m working on a new layout. let me know what you think.
when this gets implemented, i’ll fixe the other 3 themes to work with the new stuff, and you’ll be able to switch between them.
here’s the preview: http://webstuff.jrsmith.net/jrsmith_net_v4/

…unhappy.