…is severely lacking in the following departments: love, work, happiness.
Love,
because I lust after only those who either would never bother with me or could never possibly be with me. Examples of this are Bobbi, Coco, and Gen. Bobbi was out of my league. Coco lives 700 miles away and is preoccupied with all her […]

that’s probably the drunkest i’ve ever been.
i’ll let cj fill in the details, since i don’t remember a damn thing.. my stomach has been hurting for 2 days now. gah.

switched back to the old engine. moveable type was nice, but it lacked a lot of the privacy features i got used to having here.
ah well. you bastards should POST!@

much soul-searching going on lately.
talked at length the other day with lindsey. we came to the conclusion that i only want what i can never have. and… yeah, i can see how that’s true.
i mean, i consider someone being there (brandi) instead of thousands of miles away (coco) to be a turn off. i subconsciously […]

i’m very unhappy with my life.
the sad thing is, i’ll never do anything to change it. i’ll never do anything to fix the things about myself i don’t like, mentally and physically. i’ll never do anything about my friends or family, never do anything for myself at all. all because i’m timid and weak. timid […]

The Dante’s Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level
Score

Purgatory (Repenting Believers)
Very Low

Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)
Very Low

Level 2 (Lustful)
Very High

Level 3 (Gluttonous)
High

Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)
Low

Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)
Extreme

Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)
Extreme

Level 7 (Violent)
Extreme

Level 8- the […]

all will be revealed tomorrow, good or bad.
i’m tired of living lies for people who only care about themselves. it’s time to be true to everything and everyone, because tonight has taught me that not the first one of you bitches gives a shit about me if it gets in the way of satisfying […]

crazy dreams last night
i dreamt that i dreamed that i was in the military on some kind of base on an island. the island had two bridges, one big enough for cars to drive across, the other, a footbridge. the island began to crumble and the large bridge broke and i jumped to safety right […]

man, work has seriously been irritating me lately.
seth went off to israel and left me with this UA bullshit. i thought all i’d have to do is check in with the support guys on a daily basis and see if they’re making any headway. no big deal.
instead, the support guys aren’t doing anything, because they […]

Even when circumstances are favorable, I am depressed. All it takes is the hint that someone who I care for doesn’t wish to talk to me, or see me, and I fall into a pit of despair. It’s a selfish thing, but out of my control. Maybe there’s something to that chemical imbalance nonsense.

i can’t believe the shit i heard him say just 15 minutes ago.
we were here watching jenny jones. as usual, they had a tirade of 12-16 year old girls talking about how they have sex with older guys for money, how they don’t go to school, the typical shit. it was funny. but i can […]

this joins the ranks of rat race and super troopers as one of the funniest movies to be released in recent memory.
it starred… god, tons of people. mainly luke wilson, vince vaughn, and will farrel. but craig kilbourn, artie lang, 2 guys from the daily show, the guy who played stiffler in american pie, […]

With nothing to do at work today, I’m quite restless, and I seem to have been stood up for lunch.
I’ve been bombarded with religious debates this morning. So, so many people arguing. I don’t know why I even go to those forums anymore. Everything becomes a religious debate.
Personally, I’ve always considered myself to be atheist, […]

i know, at one point, it was revealed that they read this website. i hope they still do, because i’m getting sick of this bullshit.
for whatever reason, they don’t like me. i didn’t actually find this out until the last time floris was here and decided to let me in on the secret. his exact […]

stole this from some other page:
LAYER ONE:
– Name: JR Smith
– Birthdate: Aug 26th, 1981
– Birthplace: Portsmouth, VA
– Current Location: VA Beach, VA
– Eye Color: hazel
– Hair Color: dark brown
– Height: 5′11″
– Righty or Lefty: righty
– Zodiac Sign: virgo
LAYER TWO:
– Your heritage: whitebread anglo-saxon, with a dash of cherokee indian
– The shoes you wore today: pumas
– […]

ug.
what a long and boring day. i’ve had to deal with these UA programmers we paid to upgrade out accounting software (since Seth was so kind as to start the upgrade then take a 2 week vacation to israel before it was finished). they can’t seem to do anything right. some animosity is developing between […]

i’ve got dreams, dreams to remember
i’ve got dreams, dreams to remember
honey i saw you there last night
another mans arms holding you tight
nobody knows what i feeled inside
all i know, i walked away and cried
i’ve got dreams, dreams to remember
listen to me
i’ve got dreams, rough dreams dreams to remember
i know you said he was just a […]

sigh.
so.. what did i do today?
woke up at around 3. played suikoden. ordered pizza. ate the whole thing. played suikoden. took a shower. played suikoden. talked online. played suikoden…. updated my website.
i’m rather sad. coco hates me, because i overreacted to something that really had nothing to do with me, then pretended like i […]

i still feel sick. and now depressed, for undisclosed reasons. girls are treacherous.
saw the italian job last night. it was pretty good.. kind of like a mix between ocean’s 11 and the transporter. i’d recommend anyone to go see it if you like those type of heist movies. i did think edward norton was underused […]

i feel sick. i feel like shit.
stop calling me, brandi.

ug.. i feel sick. i’ve been having these terrible headaches. they’re not like anything else i’ve ever felt. the entire top half of my head hurts and down the back of my skull, my ears get this weird ringing and it feels like something is stuffed in them, and my eyes become sensitive to light. […]

what a crappy day. i’m getting sick, i’m wearing the same clothes i wore yesterday.. the webserver at earl was down all day so i kept getting the same emails over and over asking when it would be back up, was it back up yet, yack yack yack. i’m sure that john had it worse.
then […]