to get rid of cj’s big pictures.
i’m sick.

i’m going to die!!! when you left, i wasn’t finished, i’m freaking out, seeing colors, fuck, ahhhhhhhhh

things have plateaued. no more am i filled with thoughts of violence, death, mayhem, chaos… no longer do i yearn for even the slightest hint of interest, desire, or for that matter, life.. everything seems to have mellowed out, but by that same token, there are no more dizzying highs, no moments of sheer ecstacy… […]

…http://www.deviantart.com/deviation.php?id=536999…

fuck that game. fuck it right in the ear. dammit. telling me “your destiny is blocked”… fuck.

this is very, very, VERY bad

i’m movin on up. got a raise today.

here’s my char from neverwinter:

she’s a chaotic evil half warrior/ half theif. very good combination.

well, nobody posts, nobody comments on my posts, and judging from the access logs, nobody reads this site, so what exactly is the point of me continuing to pay $20 a month to keep it available to everyone? i mean, if i’m the only person using it, i can just as well run it on […]

…http://www.deviantart.com/deviation.php?id=498469…

flowers for the dead…

your life never began.. maybe that’s just as well.. the adversity you would have faced would have been great, the odds were against you, my friend.
but i can’t help but wonder what might have been. who you might have grown up to be. whose lives you might have touched, saved, or destroyed. […]

i’m free!

today, for some reason, i’ve been thinking a lot about what exactly i’m living for, or not living for, as the case may be. i didn’t really come up with anything. i’m not doing anything with my life. i’m not irreplacable or special. i don’t benefit anyone, at all. i either make no impact on […]

i just watched mullholland dr, and i just want to say…
fuck that movie.
i really liked it up until the end. i’m a big fan of crazy indie films, but this one just lost it at the party scene. it’s like they couldn’t remember what they wanted to do, what they had put all those random […]

finally got floris’s egypt pictures up. flo goes to egypt!

…http://www.deviantart.com/deviation.php?id=479207…

this site is dying. i think i’m going to solicit random people to start posting, since no one posts shit anymore.
tomorrow i’m going to get my haircut, take my sketchbook to schlotzsky’s and just draw. and i’m sorry i was an ass on the phone, i was just in a pissy mood.

had this weird dream last night… not sure what happened, but there were only 10 or 15 people left in america and they were planning to rebuild the society, and his guy who looked like a jehovah’s witness took charge. anyway, they’re in this little office in a warehouse/factory, and george carlin was there arguing […]

hidden…..!

got a cat yesterday:

i’m going to name her gretchen, per joanna’s suggestion. she’s very greedy for attention. everytime i get up she runs after me meowing..
i cut myself lastnight (by accident):

i was cuting part of the litter box cuz it was too high and the knife slipped. ow. i bled a LOT.

http://www.tvguide.com/magazine/robins/020603.asp