i’ve added a private messaging system. click a member’s name on any of their posts, and it’ll bring up a form allowing you to send a note that can only be seen by that person. it’ll show up at the top of the page the next time they log on. if the message comes from […]

i think i’m going to make a thing that’ll allow member to send private messages to each other.

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so, how are things?
…on the subject of work:
work has gotten much more interesting lately. the company has so many different projects going at the same time, it’s amazing. i often wonder if we are even capable of getting everything done. i’m involved in several of cormine’s projects now, as opposed to just a month ago, […]

sorry.

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recently, i’ve been thinking a lot about secrets things about myself and my life i’d rather keep private, and whether or not keeping them private is a good idea. this was mostly spurred by the “fight” between joanna and myself where she got highly upset that i posted “her business” on the site for all […]

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i was back in high school. i was sitting in class, and everyone in the class was black. i only mention that because it’s relevant to things that happen later. we’re taking this test. what you do is you have this sheet of questions, and to answer the questions, you peels off part of a […]

got my license back today. all i had to do was show them the letter and pay 5 bucks. i still have to go to court july 9th, and i’m not sure whether or not i’ll be getting a lawyer. i probably will. sometime the license will be suspended again, but i can get a […]

an ever changing and constantly evolving phenomenon. i sometimes feel i can’t quite deal with it. when bad lucks falls down upon me like a thousand daggers, when the people i care too much for betray their words and forget me, when work is like lodging a white hot needle into my own eye and […]

i’ve finished moving. haven’t finishedunpacking yet, but i’ve finished moving. got the phone stuff set up, and i should be able to hook up to john’s network tonight so i can get online.
the license situation sucks. last year my insurance lapsed for a month or two because the insurance company told me that my policy […]

last night i got pulled over for speeding. the cop told me my license was suspended and took it. i got a summons for speeding, and a summons for driving on a suspended license. apparently my insurance company didn’t send in the form saying i had insurance last year, so they suspended it last month […]

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tonight i’m watching monkeybone, which is a really weird movie, and i get this intense empty feeling. it’s like something was ripped out of my stomach and a gaping hole was left, and everything surrounding it was being pulled into it slowly. i felt like i had lost something important, or was just now realizing […]

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i want to die.
i’m sick of life. i’m worthless at work because of one side of me, worthless in my personal life because of the other.
i wish i hadn’t been able to change lanes before plowing into that SUV tonight.
i wish i hadn’t woken up in time to serve and miss that stopped red car […]

it’s cold here tonight… just like every other night… nothing ever changes, yet everything always changes, and each moment you’re faced with the decision to recognize that change or ignore it and preserve your precious stability and consistency, even when it’s consistently hell. people fear change. i fear change. logic dictates that this association alone […]

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hmm… well-
people suck, life sux, i suck, i am aimless.

i’m getting fat as hell. right now i’m sitting here and i can feel rolls forming where my arms touch my sides. gah.
anyway, i now have to go get an oil change, do laundry, and give buster a copy of office.
oh yeah, i blocked melissa. what the fuck is wrong with her? i’m talking to […]