///listen to the sound of me spillin my heart through this pen///
///motherfuckers know that i’ll never be marshal again///

i like that line.

…http://www.deviantart.com/deviation.php?id=381612…

i like it. currently breaks under netscape 4.xx since it mangles it’s style sheets, and the litte dashed line separator in the individual posts looks too big under opera and mozilla, but i’ll be fixing that soon. looks clean under ie.

this site sucks

what…. you?.. touch… touch… i know i’ll never mean as much to you as them… anyone… there’s too much there… things swirling around… i feel something in my head… insane… insane… that fucking bunny… seeing stuff… really messed up stuff… chapters in that book describe it…. what’s so bad about me? unless you know me, […]

all around me are familiar faces
worn out places, worn out faces
bright and early for their daily races
going nowhere, going nowhere
and their tears are filling up their glasses
no expression, no expression
hide my head i want to drown my sorrow
no tommorow, no tommorow
and i find it kind of funny
i find it kind of sad
the dreams in which […]

i don’t know what o thnk anynore man i mean i’m not happyu with anything i complain abouy everything i shun the people qwho love me i pursure the peop;lwe who hate me what am i doing with my life?notyhing there are very few people or groups that my life affecta while others are doing […]

burn it to the ground, donnie…

it’s started////
last night i had some fucking wacky dreams. the beginning is fuzzy.. i was at the house we lived in when mom and dad were first married, the one across from where norcom used to be.. i could hear people talking about helping someone move but there was no one there, except for mom, […]

from http://www.angelfire.com/vt2/g_hols/Niceguy:
It’s amazing that assholes can get girls. Actually, now that I think of it, it’s not that amazing. They are assholes at heart, but to meet girls they lavish their undying love. IT’S A CHARADE. They act nice, friendly, and they listen… until they get into what they’re after. Their prey thinks they are […]

this is going to be gone soon

i chased a hippy last night. we were at the beach, some guy walked up and the first thing i said was “we don’t have any drugs”.. he proceeds to regale us with tales of his attempts to get acid and/or shrooms, then left. a few minutes later someone said we should chase the hippy, […]

there are days when i can do nothing but sit and stare at my life as if it were some tangible object on the desk in front of me, open for examination and critique. these days are the most horrible, because time travels so slowly, minutes pass like hours, days pass like weeks. on these […]

it’s ok.. i think it’s taken on a tone that’s too serious to let the lyrical creativeness i’ve become accustomed to flow out.. there are a few songs that are sweet, like cleanin out my closet, hailie’s song, til i collapse, and my dad’s gone crazy.. but it’s nowhere near as good as the […]

well… the past 3 days have been really strange.

friday == teh bad

the post below more or less sums it all up. i seem to have lost cj and joanna (again) as friends because of it. maybe it’s best. i’ve been thinking, and i’ve come to the conclusion that it’s my problem, not theirs… i mean […]

i’ve been laying in bed tonight trying to go to sleep, but i don’t think i can until i get this shit out of my head, so here goes…
reasons i was upset tonight: cj was acting like an ass towards me, and it more or less started after we said some shit about him and […]

last night was the CRAZIEST night, surpassing all other nights, this weekend and last. i can’t believe that joanna and cj are on speaking terms again. i’m very very glad to have joanna back :). i missed her. a LOT. it also comes at a very good time cuz of.. well you know.. i won’t […]

today it hit me. up until now, i had been numb, unable to feel anything good or bad, but that ended this morning when i woke up… alone. i had gotten used to melissa being here at least one night on the weekends.. and this morning i woke up to an empty bed. everything just […]

apparently, there’s a party at my house tonight. if you read this and know where i live, come on over. bring stuff.

laundry
put server back together
set up dual-boot win2k/linux
set up apache and mod_perl on linux
try to find biztalk full version
set up mssql, biztalk, whatever else is required on win2k
barring that, download and install trial versions
learn
….
profit!

learn visual basic :(

continue being numb, uncaring, unfeeling
get very, very, very drunk, or otherwise
preach to everyone i see how fucking crazy girls are
procure […]

hidden. you can probably guess what it’s about…

a study in behaviorisms
by jr smith
tonight as i sit here at the computer wondering what it is i’ve done with my life and marveling at the brazen ignorance of my recent actions and decisions, i came to realize that in life the only thing you can truly count on, the only thing you can ever […]

you’ll notice the sidebar has changed dramatically. the webcam is back, tho not entirely functional. cj’s movie corner is a new section where cj can post reviews of movies we’ve seen. he’s busy filling it up now. there’s a list of movies we’re looking forward to seeng. eventually the crossed out ones will be linked […]