bobbi comes home in 2 or 3 days. joanna is home for 3 weeks. today i went to wendy’s for food and at a stoplight i see this car with a bunch of people in it carrying poinsettas and wrapped presents and i felt this really weird feeling, not really sure what it was, but i was remembering times long ago when the whole family would pile into the old stationwagon and go over to grandma’s christmas eve. as much as i hate my sisters (which seesm to be dwindling lately), there was a profound sense of family in those car trips. and i felt bad that that died when my parents got divorced. i miss it. oh well.. i think the next few weeks are going to be rough. it sux having two friends who can’t stand each other. might be switching jobs next week instead of the first of the year. i have to meet with the guys tomorrow. i still haven’t gone christmas shopping, since those insurance payments broke me. next week i will. man. today i was wondering how it is people die from jumping off of bridges. it doesn’t seem like they would dive deep enough to not be able to get back up to the surface. odd…..