i hate mondays. i spent the better part of the day in a dark mood… work was work. last night i decided to block joanna for too many reasons to list here. bobbi also still seems to see me as a disposable friend, which is very depressing. i don’t know what it is about me which keeps me in that “nice to have around, but not my first choice” category, but it’s very very depressing when you realize you’re there. i tried to make up for how ugly i am with being nice, and generous, but it doesn’t seem to matter to anyone, since time and time again the pretty ones get what i was after regardless of how they act. everyone is like this, everyone is doomed to repeat this behavior, and there’s nothing i can do to change it. even if there was something i could do, it’s none of my business now is it?