new place
well, i’m getting settled into my new place. the crazy lady next door keeps screaming, and banging on stuff, which scares me a little. i truly think one day she will try to kill me. aside from that things are cool, i’m typing this now on a dialup connection to my mom’s computer which is hooked up at home to the DSL. since it’s late and i didn’t feel like going out, and i didn’t have any phone cords long enough, i have several small cords rigged up via 3 modems running across the floor to the jack. it’s very precarious. anyway i just wanted to post an update.
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Joanna
1 day, 8 hours later
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JR Smith
2 days, 19 hours later
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CJ West
2 days, 20 hours later
Drive, I and since you all read this anyway I wanted to talk and get shit off my chest as well. You know I’m not the best person in the world, and I know I’ve done a lot of bad things to people. Hell I was known for my evilness but think one thing each one of you has to admit, I’ve been there for you each of you when I could and not just when it was convenient. Shit I can’t even talk about shit without think that I’m complain. Lets just say exactly what I feel. I really don’t like my life right now. And my friends aren’t the friends I am to them, This isn’t a cry for attention. Shit your there for someone trying to talk to them about there problems and give them reassurance but nothing you can do or say can compare to a Girl. You wanna know how that shit feels, not good. I’ve been picked over for my own girlfriend. Joanna talks about not having an self worth well hey Your known for not seeing everything you do to me. My girlfriend has lied to me constantly, judges me for stuff that she has no idea about, Hell can we not forget “Aside from meeting some of your friends,I wish I’d never met you.”–joanna… Yeah I’m supposed to feel great about myself and my relationship. You know how much stuff eats at me? And I bet I’d get the exact opposite reaction of every other rant. Cuz thats exactly what I mean to each of you. A means to supply more friends. Everytime I’ve been upset I’ve gotten an argument not understanding. When I felt JR broke my trust did anything Jr come running to prevent the problem no its not worth. When I was upset with Joanna about her not caring about my feelings I was broken up with. Not worth the trouble eh?
I think I’m just gonna give up on trying to be a semi-decent friend and a boyfriend nothing really comes of it anyway. God I’m tired I want to send this cuz this is how I’m feeling but hell it causes problems anyway. I can see it now. Joanna get upset make another attempt to break up with me. Jr I really don;t know what you’d do. Anyway instead of just feeling I’m going send it -
CJ West
2 days, 20 hours later
Make it clear this isn’t a cry for attention, Just after this recent later it got me thinking about what’s been going on. And it kinda pissed me off. Cuz I’d be trying to be a good friend and I’d get complained about. Jr you talk about being lonely and hating being alone so I come over and you complain. Just like you guys got pissed when you tried to get floris and I to talk. you didn’t feel appreciated, well I feel the same way.
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CJ West
2 days, 20 hours later
I wasn’t finished, JR you know how you hate the fact that it seems like pity when people are nice o you. Well i feel the same way sometimes, it kinda seems like Joanna is only being my girlfriend to have more friends you know, cuz Joanna you know what’ve said before how you only love me when I’m around, kinda weird huh? “You only wanna be with me when its convenient” who said that?? I really think the only reason you spent so much time with me the past month was because of guilt and you said it on more than one ocassion that was the reason you felt like coming over. that hurts and makes you wonder. I call both of you on numerous occasions just to see what you guys are doing, to talk and what not cuz I think about you two. Joanna you call me but only on rare ocassions, Jr you’ve called me about 5 times since we met. I felt it was about time I got to rant to both of you. well not really rant just express my feelings.
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Floris Leenders
5 days, 17 hours later
whyd u post that vhd link?
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CJ West
5 days, 22 hours later
Where the hell are you? Get your finger out that girl we don;t want you bring any dieases here
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Floris Leenders
6 days, 10 hours later
im doing nothing of the sort
That’s cool JR. I’m proud of you. I went and registered for school this weekend and I leave the 17th of August. The lady said that’s 8 weeks away. Have you been hanging out with Bobbi and avoiding point and objects?