let’s play a game. we’ll just type every word that comes to mind, on a variety of subjects. first is what you’re feeling right now:

sleepy
sad
anxious
restless
regrettful
eager
longing
heartbroken
lonely
aimless

how about.. death?

curious
flippant
needed
blissful
answer

and girls?

mystery
tricky
mind games
vital
misleading
hurtful
evil

finally… family?

dysfunctional
unneccessary
complicating
mean
nasty
screwed up
unclean
unfit

good work.. you win.