had 2 somewhat disturbing dreams last night/this morning

the first, i was a rookie cop, and i was trying to get a better gun. the head cop or whatever is like yeah let’s go to that guy who has all the guns’ house. and i’m showing them this tiny little gun i had and it was like almost a toy. anyway we get there and it’s the guy martinez from NYPD blue, except older, and he gives me a glock saying i was always partial to those. we go back out to my car and the tire was flat, i freak out and lose it. i say it’s ok it’s ok we’ll just drive on 3 wheels but they all look at me and laugh and go back in the house, which is now my house. i go inside and it’s dark, like sunset type dark, and no one is there. i run outside and get in mike’s truck and drive to the chesapeake square mall area and it starts raining and i’m crying and talking to someone on the phone. then i drive back home and all the family is there laying on beds throughout the house sleeping, and one by one i put the gun in their mouths but don’t shoot. i could see their faces very clearly and the rain made weird shapes on their faces with the light streaming thru the window.

second dream, i wanted to kill linda truax and whoever else might be there. so i go to her house, which had this old ford car in the driveway fully restored and painted white and red. i walked into the house and this very old woman was sitting in a rocking chair in the corner and told me that they didn’t live here anymore. i thought very seriously about killing her but she was too nice and warm and unafraid, so i look at all her cats and think it was weird that someone else with a lot of cats had moved here. then i wonder how i can find out where they are now. i walk out the house, that’s the end