Jr, I know after seeing the name up here you probably will not want to keep reading this but just do it please and don’t think in any way I’m trying to be funny, honestly I am not. Why I am taking the time to write this is still pondering in my head, but I’ll keep going. Jr my only commment is that I understand people change but not the way you have. Maybe you were never yourself in the beginning or maybe I never got the chance to know you like others. I understand what you mean when you wrote about attention how you don’t want it but do, though you did’nt exactly put it in those words. And though like CJ said you may not be the cuttest in the world,but you are a good person, well at least I always thought you were. You still seem like you are but you are putting up a barrier to some and the people have no clue why. I am sorry if I have angered you by putting up my commets, but I felt the need to tell you how I felt though I’m sure you don’t care much. Peace JR

but who are you? i know two sonyas.

we have discovered an envy triangle/circle thing..

i envy cj

cj envies u

u envy me

pretty interesting if u ask me..

anyways theres some other things i wanted to say, u say that we are two best friends right.. but i want u to understand that u are also our best friend.. i dont know if that means anything to u.. but we also care for u.. we dont want anything to happen to u.

i can see the frustrations your having.. but i dont really see any real reason for u to take such a drastic step.. i mean u have a good life, and your a good person (i know its been said.. but i think u know its true). i wouldnt want to loose u, as a friend, a person, a anything.. i think your forgetting everything u already have.. u have it better than u think.. i doubt throwing all that away will make u any happier..

Hey Jr,
Well I normally don’t make my opinions known but no matter. Speaking for myself and probably anyone who views this site, we are all quite worried about your well being. I truly believe that you are throwing in the towel far too easily. Think of all that you have instead of concentrating on what you lack. We all lack something but we play the hands we are dealt in life. You’re intelligent, funny, and most importantly good hearted. We’ve all put in some sort of effort in trying to alter your negative self perception. But as much as we say it doesn’t seem to work. Life was never meant to be easy. If everyone gave up as easily as you are I imagine the population would be significantly less then what it is now. You hate it here? Then transfer to a college or move out or something. You are intelligent and financially stable enough to do both. There’s a big world out there that lies beyond dysfunctional families and Portsmouth. Killing yourself will indirectly kill a part those who care for you as well. If you die think of all the things you’ll never be able to do, see, feel, hear again. No more custard, movies, Frank Sinatra, international voyages, and especially no more laughter and comfort that we give you and you give us. Think of what you’re throwing away too. People who fight cancer, AIDS, and other fatal diseases would love the feeling of not having to struggle just to live another day and you’re throwing that away when you could easily have the best of what life has to offer. Unfortunately, it seems you’re not willing to try. I’m sorry if I’ve failed you as a friend, I truly am. I hope that you change your mind and think rationally before letting sadness get the better of you when it is easily augmentable.

the world is horrible. full of superficial fucked up people. i don’t want to have any part of it anymore. nobody can see their own problems, everyone points out your own problems when they get brought up, everyone just sux. there are only 4 or 5 people i can stand. and i can’t eb around them very often. instead i have to sit at home and listen to my family fight over who’s more of a slut. i have to worry about 4 or 5 different drunk rednecks all of a sudden becoming family. i hate this life. i hate this world. i can’t do so many things. i am viewed as so many things. why stick around? what’s the point? so i can grow up and not get married? not have kids? get a woman i hate pregnant?? have kids like my sisters? raise them in this fucked up world? no. i refuse. when people become as “blind” as they claim to be, when they are true to themselves and don’t stereotype and judge so often, i’ll return from the dead. happy?

jr u very well know that not everyone is like that (superficial, stereotyping.. etc) if there are some.. as i think u know there are, there will be more.. but they wont all come to u.. u have to make a concious decision to interact with them.. if your current surroundings bother u so much, u can leave.. nothing is really keeping u there.. i mean u have the finances, and the motives.. so why dont u? besides.. your becoming exactly what u say u hate in that msg.. dont stereotype the world, believe me theres a lot of great people out there, people youll never meet if u keep at it like this. joanna is right life is not easy, things dont just come to u, if u want happiness go out there and get it. u obviously have things u desire.. (mostly because there are obviously things u dislike), i dont feel like starting an arguement about your life, your smart enough to know there is a lot more out there, and u cant pass judgement on something u have never seen nor experienced.. theres a lot out there, and theres bound to be quite a bit youll like..

Even though I already saw you tonight I want to add some stuff. Answer this Now JR how did you meet Joanna? Through Me how’d you meet Floris, through school and he was our mutual friend, how’d you meet me, I walked up to you and talked to you cuz I was bored one day. Now you’ve got 3 friends cuz out of boredom. Maybe your boss will know someone that needs a escort for a function or something, it happens by chance but only if you let it, or like me you can go out and find someone like I found you. But it is true friends comes far and inbetween but they are out there. Oh yeah by the way floris, just cuz you don’t stick it in the vagina doesn’t make you virgin, nasty ass freak!!!!

damn pbs speculative assed bastard!

THAT TRIANGLE THING WAS MY DISCOVERY FLORIS HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT CRAZY ASS FANATICAL BASTARD
* new quote by floris*–”It’s Ass-tacular”

your funny.