since people have lost interest, or have been tricked, i feel safe in posting more relevant topics.

for the next month (possibly shorter) i will not go out anywhere aside from work and lunch, and of course this weekend with bobbi.
also, i am not going to be talking to anyone on the phone or online. i’ll […]

green shit came out of my arm. oh god. i think it may need to be amputated

had 2 somewhat disturbing dreams last night/this morning
the first, i was a rookie cop, and i was trying to get a better gun. the head cop or whatever is like yeah let’s go to that guy who has all the guns’ house. and i’m showing them this tiny little gun i had and it was […]

on the way to work, i was half asleep. there’s an intersection near work where i usually turn left. well this particular day, there was construction on the road that i wasn’t really paying any attention to. the intersection had 2 turn lanes, i was in the righthand one since the lefthand one had a […]

if anyone will figure that out?

some of you have been getting emails from me lately. like tonight. read them carefully.

what’s with all the coincedences lately?

bobbi gets a flat tire the same day i do.
bobbi also tells me she used to sign her emails “kevin arnold”
kelly says she had a dream about being in a car with me and floris, and she got out and was watching as we craashed it. anyone who needs to […]

i’m posting this from a freshly installed beta copy of windows xp. sweeeeeeeeet.

she doesn’t care..
my life is nothing like the lives of those on TV. when i have problems, no one comes running, worried. no one cries. no one cares. they only care when it’s convenient for them. and i don’t blame them. how can i expect anyone to care? i’m not worth it. better to just […]

well lookie here!! a plethora of floris joking material!!!
Sheep.
SHEEP!
SHEEEEP!
SHEEEEEEEP!
Sorry floball

i haven’t been able to remember my dreams lately. except for last night. i don’t know why…
it started off me and joanna in a diner type thing and she was talking to me about something, i can’t remember what it was but it sounded important, and when i looked up her eyes were very big. […]

i fucked up again. last night’s email were a huge mistake. i am so sick of causing everyone else problems i am past any chance of reconciliation. why put up with me? i am a downer, and high maintenance lately. i’m through. i’m going to remove myself from all human contact, for the sake of […]

last night i lay awake in the dark from 1 am to about 3:30 or so drifting in and out of consciousness and when i dreamt, if you can call it that, i saw bullets of all different shapes and sizes being loaded into guns. it was always just one bullet, and i saw them […]

was watchin some mother’s day saturday night live special, and they had this thing where a bunch of dead rock stars formed a band in heaven, and buddy holly was there, anyway they were saying it was said that he had gotten reincarnated (like they would do now if he had died) and he had […]

i had to delete a chat floris posted, by request, more or less just to keep the level of shit down. in retrospect it probably will not make much difference, but regardless, i made the effort.
on an unrelated note, i am so filled with rage right now i think i chipped a tooth. i am […]

since people (read: my family) seem to have stopped reading the site, i guess i can start posting more personal things again.
my bouts of depression are occuring at a much more rapid pace, but they don’t seem to last as long. i used to feel down a few days at a time maybe once or […]

i can hear my bandwidth dropping bit by bit. hehe it’s ok i’ve got what, 12 gigs a month, so i don’t think we’ll be running out… i think the most i ever used was 2-300 megs when i was doing heavy dev on the site and uploading pics alot..
by the by, the webcam pic […]

people seem to have stopped reading. ah well. here’s a little recap of what i can remember from my dreams the past 3 nights:
i dreamt i was being tortured by a german woman. she put a tarantula on my hand and it would start to pinch the skin with it’s teeth but she’d day no […]

i meant to put something up about this earlier in the site’s life, but forgot. anything that i post here is to be left here. i know people have been reading the site who i would rather not know the things i say here, and i just want those people (and well everyone really) to […]

the second one really freaked me out.
in the first, i was mulder in the x-files and me and scully were in this prison, talking to the warden, i don’t remember what about, then we left and at the front door of the prison a supermarket was connected. we were shopping, when all the prisoners come […]

the theme song from thundercats keeps playing in my head. i can’t get it to stop. i have resorted to loudly humming and whistling other songs, annoying my coworkers, but they always eventually turn back into thundercats. ahhhh.

i can’t remember much. me and cj went to blockbusters looking for a DVD. i realized i had no membership so i go to apply for one, and maria fernandez is in charge of it. it was weird. she hands me these laminated charts bound on one end with a spiral thing and having magnets […]