dream
here’s last night’s dream:
it started off with me being carter from ER, and i was in a supermarket with the receptionist jerry and the asian doctor (can’t remember her name) a woman had choked on a piece of gum and they were trying to help her. they had someone on the phone walking them thru it, and even tho i was several feet away i could hear the guy on the phone. they put her entire head in a bag of ice and needed to find a nail file, jerry goes off and gets milk, then gets upset cuz he didn’t understand why it was wrong. the asian doctor was all flippant about it so she goes offsinging, so i grab a nail file and go over and pick up the phone. i tear open the bag of ice and her head was all contorted, i pulled her mouth open ALOT and it was malliable like playdough, dug the gum out then took her to a sink and held her head over it then flippeed her over and she started to breathe. then we were at her house, and it was 3rd person perspective now, and carter had asked her out, but she was engaged. disappointed he leaves, 1st person perspective now, and i was carrying one of the doors to the hospital under my arm whistling. at the entrance a cop stops me and asks me if i was john carter, i hesitate and say yeah, and in a really nasty way she says i have to come down to the station later. i get mad and go upstairs, to this very very small attic type place that had the daycare center in it, tho i never saw it, i could hear the babies crying. i was talking to two other people about having to go to the police station and apparently they did too. i had to slide down a ramp thing to get out and as i was going i said i know how to tell the police what they want to hear, i’ve done it 10 or 20 times before, and they were amazed, and i say i had a troubled childhood. then i’m really far away watching him get into his car and drive off, and the scene looked like it was something from america’s most wanted, and i see this old hillbilly couple in a station wagon with rags wrapped around their faces and the woman had one shoved in her mouth, she was crying and her entire face was blood red. her eyes were bugging out and pupilless. the man’s face was also red and he looked mad, and he shoved a rag into his mouth too. the car was running. then john walsh starts talking, saying they were carter’s parents and were convinced he had killed someone so are taking their own lives. then the man turns around with a super soaker and aims it at the woman,and he had 2 large bumble bees stinging his face, and you hear boobytrap boobytrap as he pulls the trigger and that was it
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Floris Leenders
19 hours, 42 minutes later
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Floris Leenders
20 hours, 9 minutes later
thats fitzgerald not fitgerald
and that comment about the lighter read is referring to lord of the flies.
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Floris Leenders
1 day, 1 hour later
hey jr i made an interesting discovery while playing ff8 today on this crap monitor.. hehe built in fsaa.. well sorta.. it tends to aa more than desired but it is an interesting concept.
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Anonymous User
2 days, 7 hours later
Hi JR. I just found your webpage and read some of
your post. How are you doing? I know how it is to
feel lonley, depressed, and in a pit of despair…But sooner or later you have to start climbing out
(like the guy being chased by the lion)
Sometimes we all need help.Hang in there. We ALL have baggage, but eventually
we have to leave the bad stuff in the past, and
start making our own way. If someone won’t let it
lie, if they keep dragging it back up… or making
you feel cornered. After you get out… let them
be, to stew on it for a change.Don’t let their junk pull you down.
And know that some one cares, even via internet -
JR Smith
2 days, 10 hours later
people actually read this? good god i feel like i’m under a microscope. i wonder who “unknown” is? it’s not like i know millions of people so i have somewhat of an idea of who it is. anyway, you people can relax, i am losing my mind so it’s sorta relegated the depression to second string. at least it’s fun. boobytrap boobytrap
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JR Smith
2 days, 11 hours later
and what’s even stranger is that the unknown stranger is from norfolk! how odd is that? it must be someone i know.. but i can’t think of anyone doing medical training/research… hmmmmm…. the plot thickens.
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Anonymous User
5 days, 8 hours later
if you don’t want people reading your stuff,
don’t post it -
JR Smith
5 days, 15 hours later
i was kidding. it was meant more to illustrate the fact that the sight has been up for quite a while and no one was reading it until just recently. lighten up.
hey jr, i noticed your reading clockwork orange.. good book, i dont know if youve already read these but heres a small list (ok very small list) of other books u might like..
heart of darkness - conrad
*** definaitly a good read
brave new world - huxley
siddhartha - hesse
the great gatsby - fitgerald
the terminal man - crichton
the andromeda strain - crichton
catch-22 - heller
lord of the flies - golding
this one is a lighter than the others however still a very good read
animal farm - orwell
1984 - orwell
for both of these orwell books the movie interpretations are very very good, im almost sure u read animal farm, but i wanted to included anyways, as for 1984 im not so sure about that one, either way the associated movie would be brazil, one of my favorites, but i dont recall u ever seeing it. anyways also as for heart of darkness there is also a good movie to go along with that, apacolypse now. anyways, after reading u should also check out the movie for clockwork orange, they leave out the last chapter but its still a very well done movie and does the book justice.
also look into ts eliot.. he has some great poemsdealing with simular topics, these arnt really to be taken lightly though.. check out hollow men that should be a good one to think about for a long time. heh..
anyways have fun, i think heart of darkness is probably the best one on that list, youll have to do some serious prying/thinking to figure out whats going on in the background though.