well let’s see… over the past week or two, a lot of stuff has happened… christine was out all last week for surgery/recovery, so i was sorta running the library, that by itself was crazy but i also had this offer from john on my mind.. i want to take it, but i am also wanting to stay where i am. i feel very useful there, and i think i’d feel guilty for leaving. tomorrow i’ll talk to chris about it and we’ll see where that goes.. mom and mike are getting divorced finally, and they are selling the house, which means in a few months i will have to strike out on my own. i guess it’s a good thing.. cj and joanna have been going thru drama, some my fault, she almost broke up with him. we had something of a tradition going on sunday nights but tonight they appear to have ditched me, i dunno. buster, norma and ben have been in maine all week. teri crashed her car. bobbi came back from california today, so we got to chat for a while.. she invited me to visit her out there when she’s doing her internship :) haven’t talked to cj since yesterday morning.. we got into an arguement over something justin said, and i think he was mad at me. ah well. i bought a sweet new webcam. what else… i think that pretty much covers it… been contemplating suicide lately, i’ve been having incredible mood swings and it’s ripping me apart. one day i’m ignorantly serene the next every bad thing about me swirls thru my head constantly. i may be losing it… at least i have this log to chronicle it. i’m gonna go to bed now