well i’ve been in amsterdam with cj and floris for the past two weeks and it was definitely… interesting.. the city itself isn’t nearly as wild as people lead me to believe. granted there are prostitutes and live sex shows and sex museums, and smoke shops and all of that but it’s like it’s normal i don’t really know how to explain it didn’t seem too wild to me. anyway i had a pretty good time for the most part except the last like 4 or 5 days i was really wishing i could go home, but that was to be expected i mean i was around them constantly for 2 weeks how could you not get tired of someone in a situation like that? i’m sure they felt the same way there were times when tensions were pretty high.. the only time i was really depressed was when we went to that show and that stripper wanted me to get on stage, and i refused and they joked me for it… made me feel like shit.. i just can’t do things like that… it didn’t matter that this girl was naked and a prostitute all i saw was the people who would be looking at me and thoughts of them laughing at any number of embarrassing things that could have happened. it scared me shitless. all in all tho i’m glad i went, but now everyone is bugging me becuz i didn’t take any pictures and they all want me to retell stories about holland it’s very frustrating!!! like the trip was a sightseeing trip or something, which it wasn’t, it was all about visiting floris in his new home and just spending time with him. now i have to get the souveigners out to everyone and ugg cash in traveler’s cheques catch up on mail.. damn and i have to work tomorrow BLAST! lyf sux