had a crazy dream the last night (friday night)… i was part of a group trying to infiltrate some old guy’s family to steal something i’m not sure what, anyway we make our way into the house but he comes home so i disguise myself as his elderly wife while everyone else shrinks and hides under the furniture, then my disguise is discovered when the wig comes off and i start crying like i really was the woman and my dark young hair was something i had been hiding/…. then it switches to a woman in counseling becuz she was attacked and all of a sudden they just start going at it and i’m watching then the same woman is in a dark subterranean place and has a flashlight which is the only light in the place, and she’s dressed as an excavator looking at some papers then there’s a rumbling i turn and see a subway train pulll up but it’s made of bricks and full of water, i zoom to the window and there’s a bunch of people drowning inside and i can clearly see the panicked faces staring at me pleading for help it scared the hell out of me.. it was so vivid so real.. and one of the drowning people was the woman….. it was crazy..

the day was pretty uneventful, got into a fight with my mom she told me to leave then she yelled at me for not being more involved with the fucked up family then she said i should go hibernate.. she doesn’t make any damn sense… went and saw dude where’s my car with cj and joanna, it was pretty funny but not hilarious, then we watched indiana jones the last crusade at his house, we were going to watch rising sun (sean connery movies) but they started fooling around on the couch like they do every fucking time so i left.. from now on i’m not hanging around with them together i hate feeling like a third wheel.. and that means i prolly won’t see joanna anymore since we never hang out without cj… that sux.. but i dunno what else to do

on an unrelated note i have had a throbbing headache for 3 days i think something is wrong in my neck.. i should go to a chiropractor but i won’t.. and cj’s birthday is today (sunday) i’m not getting him anything, they are talking about going to dinner tonight i don’t know if i will go